Drugs Rule Everything Around Me.

romanceindenial @ 2009-01-11T21:20:00

2009-01-12T02:20:21Z

My dad is moving to Florida on tuesday.
I'm not.
I dont know how to handle this.

romanceindenial @ 2008-11-24T20:25:00

2008-11-25T01:25:04Z

I hate the things I've done, but I hate more that they make you not like me.
If i could change the things i've done, I would in a heartbeat, but I guess growing up is making mistakes.

romanceindenial @ 2008-11-21T17:33:00

2008-11-21T22:33:06Z

I cant wait to be away from this god forsaken place.

romanceindenial @ 2008-10-25T13:06:00

2008-10-25T17:06:59Z

I fucked it up.
so bad.
I cant make a decision to save my life and when I finally do, its the wrong one.

I'm coming home.

2008-10-18T16:11:35Z

I'm actually really excited for homecoming, idk if I should be because I dont want everything to fucking suck and then be like why would i think that this year should be good.
But who knows.
now i need to shower, go to the game, go to mike's, homecoming, PARTY!
I need to stop partying so much probably, I could've probably applied for college by now instead of going out every fucking night, i'm slacking, but im so scared to grow up.
Whatever, I'm gonna have a fantastic night even if i have to do it all by myself!

romanceindenial @ 2008-10-06T19:24:00

2008-10-06T23:24:05Z

I have been sick for a month.
I don't know how Ry can handle this, i'm such a bitch when i'm sick.
I'm so stressed about college, the word makes my stomach turn. I have no idea what I want to do with my future, and I always got good grades but apparently not good enough.
fuck.

romanceindenial @ 2008-09-07T19:16:00

2008-09-07T23:25:10Z

Ryan and I are back together, it all happened so suddenly.
For awhile this summer I thought we would never get back together, even though we still spent a ton of time together we fought alot and things had changed.
But I realized that there is no one that makes me feel the way he does, and there is no reason to stay apart when we both love each other and neither of us are going to stop anytime.
I guess I just got annoyed of hanging out with guys I didn't like and then having him try to get back at me by hanging out with girls and then telling me all about it to try and make me jealous, when he would just tell me he still loves me, I know I won't be able to stop loving him.
This is how things are supposed to be.
together :)
i'm happy now, i'm not going to fuck this up again.

romanceindenial @ 2008-08-10T12:32:00

2008-08-10T16:32:12Z

hes leaving me forever, starting saturday.
last night was the last time i get to see him besides the 3 seconds @ work when he came to get drinks and tell me he wasnt going to buy me a redbull.
tonight im preparing myself; 2 sad movies (p.s.i love you, definetly maybe) a box of tissues, 2 of my depressed friends, and a big thing of ice cream.
I have no idea how to handle this maturely but I guess this is a start.
I knew it was coming from the begining and when i started this summer romance i knew so well that when august 16th came around he was going home.
it still fucking hurts.
& its making me rly think.

romanceindenial @ 2008-07-31T17:42:00

2008-07-31T21:46:30Z

My face looks horrible.
For once in my life i thought I was kind of pretty and my mom made them cut open my face & now i look like a dog bit me & then a got beat.
Whenever I look into a mirror I cry.
For once mother doesnt know best.

romanceindenial @ 2008-07-24T23:17:00

2008-07-25T03:19:29Z

I don't want surgery.
I don't need surgery.
I don't want to leave my friends for almost two weeks.
:(

romanceindenial @ 2008-06-17T16:39:00

2008-06-17T20:39:59Z

me and ryan broke up.
after one year and 2 months.

romanceindenial @ 2008-06-09T16:19:00

2008-06-09T20:19:33Z

WHYYYYYY do I do this to myself?
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN LIKE 16 DAYS, i don't feel like counting.
idk, what I'm doing.
I want to go to six flags the 22, but I need to find someone to go w/ it will be a scorcher i'm sure.
I have exams starting tomorrow and its a rly good feeling to know I could put my name on all of them and hand them in and still get an A for the semester in everything, but! I will not, I will study until it hurts and then get A's on all my exams, because i'm a "high achiever" as my math teacher says.

romanceindenial @ 2008-05-27T19:24:00

2008-05-27T23:24:44Z

these gas prices will be the death of me.

romanceindenial @ 2008-04-25T15:59:00

2008-04-25T20:05:45Z

Today I had last off so I went to the hospital to see a family friend (I guess you would call them, I babysit for them, but my mom is like bffs w/ them too.) and they just had a baby at 12:05 p.m. I was the first person to see their new baby and it was the tiniest most precious thing I have ever seen.
If it wouldn't ruin my life I would love to have a baby.
Then I had to spend my entire life fortune filling up my gas tank and realized never ever will I even be able to afford having kids. I hate having a large vehicle, this summer I'm probably going to buy a new car, as opposed to my BEAST.
NOW, time for work, yea boiiii SP TIME!
I love my job, and not many people can say that, so be jealous :))
Oh & I got both of my prom dresses, one is BRIGHT orange. I'm just happy.happy.happy.

romanceindenial @ 2008-04-15T22:04:00

2008-04-16T02:04:31Z

my mother is a college nazi.
my spring break has consisted of work and college visit, and mine and ryan's one year anniversary, which had it's ups and downs.
I cannot believe it has been a whole year.
My parents are making me come home at 9 every night since I've had my license, this so-called freedom I'm supposed to feel having my license, yeah not feelin it.
i NEED a life.
..... the rest of my week consists of college visits and work, sometimes both in the same day.

romanceindenial @ 2008-03-25T20:40:00

2008-03-26T00:40:33Z

I spent a total of 5 hours in the DMV.
I spent over 2 hours in line, stressing about taking my license written test, and while I'm in line me and my mom realize we dont have a small picture so she takes her camera and drives to Walmart and prints out a picture of me that looks horrible, but whateverrr.
and then I get up to the window at 3 and then we forgot the dumb drug and alcohol paper thing saying I took the class and they stop testing @ 3:30, so we FLEW home doing like 90 the whole way, and made it back 7 minutes late but they still let me take it.
& I got 3 wrong, and your only allowed 4 so I almost passed out from like fear, because i overanalyzed everything.
THEN we realized we forgot about my sister who we were supposed to pick up @ 3, so she was stranded @ school, but we werent going to leave now.
So I made my appointment for next week because I'm not allowed to take my test in my car because its registered in New Jersey and stuff so I have to give them all the information about my insurance policy.
I just felt that everyone should know, even though no one will read that.

wowww.

2007-11-22T03:01:29Z

I have two jobs now.
One @ GameStop, not that I know anything about games.
& One @ D&D, I know lots about coffee I just don't really want to serve it.
either way I have two jobs now.
Ry has a job too @ the movies.
We're never going to see each other again :(

:)

2007-10-22T00:01:07Z

I WORK SO MUCH.
I love sweater season. :)
I'm makin mad money.
Iloveryyyyy:))

romanceindenial @ 2007-07-22T23:20:00

2007-07-23T03:24:45Z

So everything has been really good lately.
Today me and my mom had a really long talk about my life and college and my boyfriend.
She said my dad loves him and wants me to marry him. But then my mom started to cry when we started to talk about my sister and what she is supposed to do with her life, because there really isnt anything she can do by herself, and my mom feel guilty because she is gunna eventually have to pawn her off on me when she cant handle her anymore.
I'm kinda in a bad mood about people acting nice and then blantantly being douchebags and talking bad about you(me).
I hardly ever get to see Ryan because I'm always babysitting which is my job right now and he is always working which really sucks but i'm making money and so is he.
I got a car for my birthday so i'm driving everywhere.
I don't really have anything else left to say.
I love the summer.

:(

2007-07-07T21:04:52Z

I'm such a jealous girlll.
I love my booo, but I can't stand fighting for him. :(((((

=]

2007-05-28T14:07:29Z

I have the most amazingwonderfulbeautifulnicelovingcaringfunnyeverythingyoucouldeverwantina boyfriend.

=]!

2007-04-20T14:10:40Z

yesterday I went to Ryan's house and we watched movies and babysat his little brother.
It was so nice to have him back from florida. Then we went outside and played tag and hide and go seek with the little kids in the neighbor hood.
We ordered Dominoes and cuddled. There couldn't of been anything more perfect.
Today I'm getting my hair done, going to his house, and then he is taking me out to dinner and a movie.
I couldn't of asked for anyone more amazing =]

romanceindenial @ 2007-04-15T12:32:00

2007-04-15T16:34:23Z

me and ryan are going out.
i dont even know what else to write.
im doing good in school.
my mom has been okay.
susanna moved to texas yesterday, so im kinda bummed.
rachel and tori are stil my BFFLZ.
my dad might take me and rachel to the providence place mall today.
i miss ryan mucho, seeing as he is in stupid florida.
yeah. the end.

i love you

2007-04-12T01:53:33Z

doesn't even begin to cover it.

=]

2007-04-04T22:42:56Z

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